Getting a bit tired

I went to the hospital today,; I had to get up early and was absolutely packed like sardines on the Central Line, to get there for 9am. I spoke to a very nice research student who is doing a Phd on the effect of alternative therapy for chronic pain sufferers. I'm glad to be part of research if it will help other people in the future. The Dr was also very nice but her assessment hurt. In her opinion, acupuncture might be too painful for me, at least at the moment, so she has referred me to a specialist who might be able to offer alternative or complementary help. I then travelled back to work, the Central Line was still very busy even though it was lunch time.
After school I held the School Football Team trials; I have reached the conclusion that whatever I do with regard the School Football Team, someone is always upset. So I just need to grit my teeth and do what I think is right knowing that someone will be upset. Most of the boys went home happy enough and I have 2 school Football Teams that are actually both quite skilful.
Life is very busy at the moment...

hmm... telling...

So I went back to school on the 3rd September and haven't blogged since the 5th - very telling of how busy I've been. And I haven't got time to blog now because I have Maths books to mark. So achievements - yes many - time to record them - 0.
Not sure what I can do about this except put some time aside at the weekend. Family life is also very busy so really not sure that's the answer. Just goes to show how hard it is to be managing a condition and working full time with a family also...

Back to School

I went back to school yesterday and was in class all day - I am very pleased with myself - it is a huge achievement. I really enjoyed it and I have a lovely class of children - 10 boys and 10 girls - so not a whole class under normal circumstances but they are my class at the moment. New children are joining all the time, I had two new additions to my class yesterday - 1 boy and 1 girl.

Many people came to find me to see how I was getting on and if I was coping. The majority of people are so kind and thoughtful. I thought I was going to find it more difficult especially given the bad news about my Dad on Tuesday. He wants us all to be positive and to carry on as he is doing himself so bravely. I was at the hospital with him so I volunteered to 'phone everyone to let them know the news. That was how I spent Tuesday evening.

I have a couple of hours at home today to recuperate from yesterday and my class are in the trusted hands of our regular supply teacher who is wonderful. She met them yesterday so they will be fine and I've left some lovely work for them to do. I think I would rather bank her time as I don't think I need it as much now as I will later on when I've been teaching a few weeks and parents' evening is looming. Hopefully my Head will agree.

Blood test first thing this morning - my husband and I both had to go - a nice little trip out together. We arrived at the hospital at 7.30am and there were already 68 people queuing before us. We were seen at 8.45am so not too bad. Hubby seems to be getting better every day and he is driving now as well so he can occupy himself better.

My youngest son went back to school today looking very smart as usual on his first day. He'll moan when he sees he has an appointment with the careers officer on his half day next week. All sons at home at the moment so it's all a bit busy here at home - nice though.

I have to make some 'phone calls now for my Dad and for my Access to Work. Oh and I've been ironing and dog walking and driving and washing and... must be careful not to overdo it.

A whole week!

So much for my resolution writing more often, I've left it a whole week this time. Where to start? On Saturday I had to travel to London for one of my pain management group sessions. As always it was very useful. But is a long day and the journey is tiring. On Wednesday, Thursday and Friday I went into school for a couple of hours each day to familiarise myself with school, my classroom, the people, and the journey there. On Wednesday my son rearranged the room for me and finished off any lifting or carrying so that on Thursday and Friday I was able to go into school on my own and get my brain back into school.
We've been food shopping again, very slow. I have visited my sister and my mum and dad stop I think I find five shirts and I have done loads of washing. Hubby and I have walked the dog very slowly a few times. Today we had to queue for the uniform shop as my son needed a new blazer. I picked my other son up from the station with his stuff and then took my other son to have his hair cut and buy new shoes for school.
I can't remember what else I've done and now I'm feeling tired – it's my first day at school tomorrow.

Thursday - Monday

Oops I've left it too long again and now I'm going to have to really think about what I've done. I've finished the Maths paper and emailed it off so I'm really pleased about that. I read it again this morning and found a couple of things I would add or change but it's one of those things that I could keep adding to and changing so I have to let it go. I'm free now to think about school work for this week. It's Bank Holiday Monday today; I've hung some washing out and collected the pears that have fallen from the tree - that takes so long and so much effort. I'm just about to iron some shirts - I wonder how many I'll manage. Hubby wants me to take him to drop something off and do a little bit of food shopping - it's strange that he can't drive at the moment - I wonder how long it will be? He is so much better already but he's still bruised and a bit swollen so he's being sensible and taking things slowly.

I had to take my lovely car to the dealer on Friday; it was recalled because some have been found to have a loose steering wheel bolt. That was a lot of effort as I had to walk into town, did a bit of clothes shopping and get the bus home. As soon as I'd reached home the dealer rang to say my car was ready to pick up - typical. I got 2 buses back so that I didn't have to walk far and they'd cleaned my car inside and out too - lovely.

I took hubby food shopping on Saturday and we bought quite a lot - he was even slower than me walking round and I had to pack the shopping into bags - it all took ages but we did it. We asked my son to get the bags from the boot of the car; that was a bridge too far. The cricket has been on TV so we've watched that which takes up all day. It rained all day on Saturday, ad I mean rained - it didn't stop. Some towns nearby were flooded for the first time in years it was that bad.

I helped my son clean out next door's guinea pigs while they're away. They are sweet, but bigger than I thought they'd be. They squeak a lot and love their food. I've done my mindful stretching exercises every day in the morning, they really do help to get me going. The pain has been bad but I've been trying the mindful exercises so that I'm trying to just acknowledge the pain and not get annoyed, sad, upset by it. It still hurts as much but I feel more in control I suppose. It's difficult to unpick all the feelings.

Right, I really must try not to leave it so long to write although the days fly past and I don't realise it's been so many days. In a way perhaps that's a good sign that I'm not constantly consciously thinking about my pain and I do forget to write. Right, where's that iron?

Saturday - Tuesday

Well first, a big achievement is that I haven't opened my laptop - no checking emails, work -nothing. That's partly because hubby had a hernia operation on Saturday, very time consuming. He's doing well and can now make himself breakfast and a cuppa. I had my hair cut and finished on Monday; always tiring. I did a little bit of shopping for clothes while I was In town. I took the dog to have his nails clipped yesterday with the help of my son. I've been to the doctors and chemist a couple of times - poor hubby. I've done a few loads of washing and made several phone calls. I bought a new telephone yesterday and am busy setting that up. I missed my mindful stretches twice which felt really strange - I need to make them a priority; did them this morning.

I had to drive there and back to the hospital twice on Saturday so that was a lot of driving. My son put some petrol in my car for me. I've been food shopping a few times. I've ironed a couple of shirts and vacuumed once. I picked blackberries in our garden and made a tart which we ate with custard - much tastier that I thought it would be. Today I need to try to finish the maths or at least nearly - it's beginning to bug me now and I want to send it off.

Wednesday to Friday

Had a cuppa & a chat with The In-Laws - very pleasant 2 hours. Ironed 5 shirts. Walked dog once for 20 minutes. Visited Dad & sister for a total of 5 hours. Did food shopping, that was tiring and I had to stop once and hold on and breathe. Stretching exercises every day. Hung washing out a couple of times. Made a few phone calls which I find tiring. Paid deposit on new bathroom. Bit more shopping. Bit more Maths work.

Gosh doesn't sound much when I write it down but it's all pretty tiring.

I've excelled myself today. I had tea & biscuits this morning for 2 hours and we chatted the whole time - very pleasant sitting on the decking in the sunshine. Then afternoon tea & cake meeting an adorable puppy who is already being very well trained - delightful. Ironed 4 shirts and was up, dressed and exercised by 9am - getting there.

Thinking about joining a gym as I feel I need to do more exercise although not sure if the cost would be worth it. I might wait until I'm back at work and see how I feel. Unless the gym can offer me a free trial - think I'll ask.

Tired now...

A few more days

I feel a lot better than I did on 8th August. Who am I to question pain, life, Earth, The Universe? It really isn't helpful to let negative thoughts in - if thoughts are like buses then I need to choose the ones I engage with and let the others pass by. It's hard to do this and it needs effort, which when you're suffering in pain is hard. I need to know what I need to do when I realise the blanket of negative buses is descending.
So, I've ironed 5 shirts, taken the dog for 2x 20 minute walks, attended a hospital appointment, visited Mum & Dad, made 2 dates for tea & chat, completed more Maths work, had a new boiler fitted, applied for a loan, considered my Sky package, cleaned a window, filed my course notes, read a whole book 400 pages, made a timetable of red, amber and green activities for September, checked emails every day, and mindful stretching exercises every day.

I need to record achievements more frequently otherwise it's too much effort to try to remember what I've done.

5 Days

I have realised I haven't written for 5 days...that's a long time. Have I really had no achievements in those days? Let me try to remember:-
I ironed some shirts, maybe 3, can't remember what day.
British Gas visited and quoted for a new boiler, he was here for ages but we got the quote in the end and it was pretty much what we had guessed. Their finance package is good so we paid a deposit and booked an appointment, really soon too.
We could then confirm with the bathroom shop that we accepted their quote for a lovely new bathroom with a power shower - just what I need. I could've done with a power shower this morning. So that appointment is also now booked. We've got to pay the deposit for that this week.
Took the dog out for a 20 minute walk once.
Did a bit of research for my maths task.
Read 100 pages of a book my son recommended to me.
Hung out a few loads of washing, can't remember how many exactly.
Washed my hair today - always a tiring task.
Had my annual contact lens check and two yearly eye check, that is sooo tiring... I must have had every test imaginable and the end result was that everything is ok and no change.
Oh yes, and I've done 25 minutes mindful stretching exercises every morning. It's kind of good that I'm forgetting that I do these as it means it's becoming part of my routine without having to think about it. I've read that getting into routines helps free up brain space because you don't have to think about it. I need all the brain space I can get.
Erm...that's 5 days worth of achievements, I suppose there are some good achievements with CRPS in there. I'm feeling depressed and guilty that I feel depressed because I've got no reason to feel depressed which is making it worse. I keep telling myself to think positively and embrace each moment but it's not that simple. I have a huge, thick, dark blanket over me and I can't just shrug it off. It's not rational, or reasonable - it's suffocating.
I'm trying really hard to appear normal, whatever that is, but I know I've snapped and grumped. I want to do something but I don't know what I want to do so I can't do it.
That's why I'm going to see my sister today, I'm hoping that will help me shift the blanket. The weather is sunny so that helps me a bit. I'll pop into see my Dad, that should help too.
I'm thinking I might need to ask for more medication because my arm and chest are painful more and more and I know I don't have to put up with it but I'm frightened to increase medication as it seems I never decrease it. I could try taking extra paracetamol first, I could take an occasional co-codamol, that shouldn't affect me too badly.

Decision

I have decided that I can't write my blog every day and I shouldn't feel bad if I don't. After all, it's all about achievements, it's supposed to be a positive exercise. The thing is, I'm having real difficulty being non judgemental. I can see all the good reasons why being non judgemental is helpful and that I need to strive for it every day. I need to make a conscious effort all the time to avoid making judgments and also to see the difference between a fact and a judgment. I remember a few years ago now, a university lecture all about what goes without saying. So true. There are so many things that I take for granted and accept without even thinking about them because that's how it is, that's how it's always been, that's the only way it can be... So not true - so needs to be challenged.

So this is me, making a conscious effort to challenge all those things that go without saying and making constant judgements. If I can stop making judgments all the time then perhaps I can enjoy each moment for its simplicity. I'm here, sometimes I wonder why I'm here, I often wonder why I've got CRPS and at the moment this electricity shooting up and down my left arm and chest, but I am here and most of the time it's good and pleasant and I should enjoy every moment of it.

The Weekend

Yesterday I:-
Did 25 minutes mindful stretches with DVD
Walked dog as fast as we could walk 20 minutes
Drove to see my Dad. My Mum is going away for 5 days so I'll need to stay in touch with Dad to make sure he's ok while she's away. He says he likes being on his own sometimes. I can understand that - not having to justify or chat...
Drove home
My new gerbils arrived in a fantastic snazzy cage with loads of toys and gadgets. They are Milly and Molly. We need to handle them lots so that they are ready for the school children. I think they are about 4 months old; an ex work colleague didn't want them any more so I've adopted them. My previous gerbils, Salt and Pepper have been adopted by a work colleague because she got attached to them while she was looking after them because I was absent from work due to long term sick leave.
Drove to restaurant with hubby and drove home

It was lovely to go out to dinner with my hubby. We had a lovely chat and saw a couple of people we know. He wanted a little walk after dinner, I was tired but I didn't say anything and actually it was alright. I'm glad we did - I don't want to be forever saying I can't do things.

Today, I struggled out of bed. I had a warm bath and did 25 minutes mindful stretching exercises with the DVD; they really do help - I feel like I can move afterwards. I've pretty much sat today, on the internet reading; "The Royal College of Physicians' Guidelines for CRPS (2012)" which was interesting reading although I didn't learn anything new. I'm trying to find where it said that CRPS spreads after 2 years, I'm sure I read it and didn't imagine it. I think it's important to me to know that my CRPS might have spread anyway either with or without hard work and stress. I suppose I want to know I can work hard and have a bit of stress without risking my health. I think I will be more able to deal with the stress now because I have spent a lot of time learning relaxation techniques and realistic expectations and trying not to judge. I need to try hard not to judge because I find it difficult and also I need to try to acknowledge thoughts without necessarily engaging with them.
I also ironed 5 shirts today. I've been watching the cricket; the Ashes. I hung the washing on the line.

Borrowed Spoons

Yesterday I got up at 6.30am.
I got washed and dressed.
I did 25 minutes mindful stretching exercises with the DVD ( my theories on mirror therapy - Wednesday 17 July 2013)
I drove my son to his work experience placement and then drove myself to work by 8.45am.
I watched the last whole school assembly of the academic year.
I had photos taken with my football team and with my class.
I said goodbye to my class and wished them good luck etc. for their new schools in September.
They gave me a group hug but I had to squeal, " one at a time!!"
I talked to a few people and drove home.
In the evening, I got a lift to a restaurant where I had dinner with about 20 work colleagues.
I had to wait 2 hours for dinner, by which time I was ready to come home! I think because we were a large group and quite a few were drinking expensive cocktails, they delayed our dinner for as long as they thought they could get away with. Also, most of our group had a starter, I so wished I had!
I chatted to most people; one lovely conversation somehow turned into a very long debate about food, why do people always want to talk about food to vegetarians? It made me feel quite sick, bit fortunately I was able to turn my head and talk to different people about the prospects for a bride in an orthodox Jewish wedding. I got a lift home.

Today, I dragged myself out of bed.
I did 25 minutes mindful stretches with the DVD and also 15 minutes body scan. I had to stop the body scan as I began to feel unwell.
I took the dog for a walk before it got too hot, 20 minutes.
I've now spent quite a long time searching the web about a new treatment that has been mentioned to me: NAET. The thing is people quite often want to feel helpful so they suggest all kinds of treatments and theories etc. I know they are trying to be helpful but I find it hard to stay positive and accept my condition when so many people seem to know the cure. It makes me feel again that there's nothing wrong with me and it's all in my head and any one of these suggestions will cure me.

I also found the spoon theory that I like http://www.butyoudontlooksick.com/wpress/articles/written-by-christine/the-spoon-theory/
and this
http://www.butyoudontlooksick.com/wpress/articles/sick-humor/sick-humor-the-top-ten-worst-suggestions-commonly-given-to-someone-with-a-chronic-illness/
Haha I need to laugh!!!
The internet might be a minefield but it is also a saviour.

Drove to work and back today.
Washed the car - well it looks a bit cleaner.
Ironed 2 shirts.
Spoke to lots of people at work.
Walked the dog before it got too hot. 20 minutes
Hung the washing out.
Did my mindful exercises and I 've just realised that doing them with the DVD serves another purpose - I'm watching the lady demonstrate the stretches as if I'm looking in a mirror and it's working a bit like mirror therapy (graded motor imagery). I can definitely feel something happening while I'm mirroring the lady.

PS Don't mention risk assessments to me...

WooHoo!

Had the most fantastic weekend with my sister. And it was a huge achievement - loads of achievements:-

1. Travelled by train all the way to Hastings which included walking up and down several lots of stairs, being among crowds, walking in between stations (we had to use 4 trains).
2. We had to find our hotel which involved thinking and walking.
3. We were too early to check in so we found a cute bistro called Bullet to have a delicious lunch.
4. We walked up and down the seafront, sitting every so often when we needed to.
5. We travelled in the East Hill Lift up to the country park to admire the wonderful view. We travelled down in the lift. (there were stairs - eek! exhausting)
6. We checked in and then walked to the Italiano restaurant to have dinner.
7. We walked back. I don't know how far we walked on Saturday but it seemed a lot. Perhaps I need a pedometer so I know in future how far I've walked so I can make comparisons.
8. Woken too early by noisy guests! Up, dressed and out to find breakfast.
9. We didn't have to walk too far to find Pam's café with lots of choice for breakfast.
10. We then found deckchairs piled up on the beach, so we took one each and carried it towards the sea. Again we didn't have to walk too far before we found a good spot and sat down.
11. We did our exercises.
12. We sat and chatted for hours.
13. We then paddled in the sea before we filled our water bottles and walked towards the Seagull restaurant where we had a scrumptious lunch.
14. We then found the Old Town - a cute selection of little individual shops.
15. We then had to ask which way to the train station! We walked there and didn't have to wait too long.
16. 4 trains later, hubby picked me up at the station and I was home.

Brilliant!
I forgot to say we had a drink in a pub with masses of flowers in hanging baskets...can't remember the name of it, and worked on my letter to children and worse case scenarios as well! on Saturday and then on Sunday we talked about Springboard and did some of the activities.

I had a quiet day today! Still did 2 loads of washing and hung it out to dry, and then enjoyed the sunshine.

One of those days

Yesterday was one of those days. I try not to call them good days and bad days because that implies positivity and negativity. So yesterday, I did my mindful stretching exercises as soon as I was up and dressed. I then drove to the Medical Centre. I want to go to school in the Summer holiday to move classroom and set up my new classroom. My employer says they need something in writing from the doctor saying I'm fit to do this even though I intend to sit on a chair and direct my helpers! The receptionist said I probably need a fit for work certificate and I need to see the GP. The first appointment she could offer me is for Monday 22nd July at 5pm. This means I will already have lost a day and school is only open until Friday 26th July. But it is open again Tuesday 27th August so I suppose I could go in then if I run out of time at the beginning. The thing is, I want to limit the time I spend there otherwise I will get too tired which sometimes means more pain.

I'll 'phone the Medical Centre and see if I can pick up a cancellation any earlier than the 22nd. I've an exciting opportunity to work on the new Maths Curriculum on Friday 26th July so I won't be available that day. So after I'd finished speaking to the receptionist I picked up my prescription from the chemist. I dropped everything on the floor in the chemist and I wasn't flustered or embarrassed so that is another achievement for me. I calmly picked up everything and slowly walked back to the car.

When I got home I did  a mindful full body scan and some mindful breathing. I relaxed in the chair in the sunshine. I spent most of the day resting or mindfully exercising and breathing. In the evening I accompanied my son to a presentation event where he was awarded Players' Player which we are both very proud of. It means his peers voted for him which is a great compliment and they said some really nice things about him and why they had voted for him. I drove there and back and then was really pleased to be in bed asleep.

I'm awake early but feel ok. Today I am travelling to Hastings with my sister on the trains. We are spending some quality time together. I'm sure we will talk and not stop talking for the whole weekend! And it should be sunny weather too - bonus! I won't write anymore this weekend because we are travelling very light and I'm not taking any means to blog. I might write some things on paper so I'll transfer that on Monday. I am taking my Springboard book so that we can compare notes and talk about some of the ideas and activities. So I'll be back on Monday with all the news from the weekend...
PS I've started writing an information sheet aimed at children to explain my syndrome, how it affects me and how they can help. I'll be working on that at the weekend too with the input from my sister. We will also compile a list of worse case scenarios for work ready for my meeting with my Head regarding a risk assessment of me at work.

Another Busy Day

So, yesterday I was up, dressed, done all my mindful exercises and out of the front door by 8.30am. Number one achievement.
I had a lift to school so that I could watch the Leavers Concert. It's the first time I've been to school since I left in an ambulance with a suspected heart attack. Person after person hugged and greeted me with smiles and compliments. As I walked into the hall all the children waved at me and smiled and greeted me, it was lovely - all those smiley faces so pleased to see me.
I laughed and cried my way through the concert and it was really quite emotionally tiring. I then collected my new class for September and spent approximately an hour with them, asking and answering questions and learning about them. I'm very excited about September.
I then went to the staffroom and there were even more people happy to see me.
It was fantastic and I feel I really achieved a big step. I was very tired and glad to have a lift home. My chauffeur came in for a cup of tea and a quick chat. Very interesting because she is currently having a phased return to work after treatment. She is finding it quite tough and is shocked by how tired she is and she hasn't managed a full day yet and she's not been in class for more than two hours at a time. She is very concerned about September and being expected to hit the ground running. She had already decided to reduce her hours before her illness but even so she is very worried.
It really helped talking to her because I am just accepting that I too will find it too difficult to hit the ground running.
While saying goodbye to her the front door slammed on me - I was locked out! She wasn't able to help so I knocked on my neighbour's door and asked for help. This is a big achievement for me as I didn't hesitate to ask for help and I would've found that very difficult in the past. My neighbour is taller than both of us so she was able to help. Lucky the back door was open!
After all this excitement I drove to two schools briefly to gain information and picked up my son from school.

Today I had an appointment with Human Resource and my Head. I was allowed to invite a supporter so my sister was there too. The meeting took place in my house, in my sitting room. My dog just slept through it. The meeting lasted two hours as we discussed the plan for my return to work. I had prepared notes about all my proposals and what is important to me. I started off very talkative but did start to feel tired and gradually spoke less. I'm glad my sister was there as she had my best interests at heart and spoke eloquently on my behalf when necessary. The HR lady was a good source of knowledge and suggestions. I was pleased with the outcome of the meeting as there is a clear plan in place with scheduled reviews .
I am now tired.

Pain Management

Well...today I travelled to London and back on my own.
Firstly, I drove my son to school. Then I took the dog for a walk around the block which was about 15 minutes - must get my self something to measure distance or is time more helpful? Hmm.. I'll have to decide.
Then I walked to the station and travelled on the train, and then walked from the station to the hospital. The Pain Management course/group was as helpful and useful as ever. I really need to try and understand how the nervous system works so I can explain it to someone else - that's my test that I have understood something - if I can explain it then I must understand it.
I'm now very tired so I'll finish this post tomorrow...

Busy Day

I've had a busy day and now I'm tired. First I took our dog for a walk for about 20 minutes. Then I went on the bus to town and bought some greeting cards for upcoming birthdays, anniversaries and retirement. Then I had my hair coloured and cut which took 3 hours. After that I went into a big clothes shop and picked out lots of dresses to try on. I bought 4 outfits and my son approves so I'm ready for this sunny weather. I travelled on the bus to home. It seemed like a very long, bumpy ride! I ironed 6 shirts. All very tiring and I had to take extra paracetamol and have a lie down.

I wanted to have my hair done because I am meeting my new class on Wednesday and that's why I felt I wanted some new clothes too. I have now forgotten everything I was going to write....!

Here I am!

I didn't realise I hadn't written anything since Thursday! I was working on some of the pages on Friday so that's an achievement. I also had a long conversation with HR which was very reassuring. She knew the laws and procedures involved and assured me that her role is neutral and advisory. I shall wait and see.
I've done quite a few machine wash loads and it's all dry and put away. I've been soaking up the wonderful vitamin D and of course watching the tennis at Wimbledon. Glued to the set! And there's cricket to watch next week as the Ashes starts.
I took the dog out for a walk by myself, we didn't go too far as I had to wait until the weather had cooled down and therefore it was getting late.
Today I drove to see my Mum & Dad. It's about a 20 minute drive. My son came with me so that I wasn't driving alone, plus he wanted to visit them too. On our way home we did a bit of shopping. It was probably a bit too much altogether and I had awful pain for a while. I found that doing my mindful stretching exercises worked to distract me from the pain and also I felt better afterwards. Note to self: even if you don't feel like it - gentle, mindful stretching exercise helps.
I read a few more chapters of my women's springboard book but it wasn't really going in - I need to concentrate on it and do the activities. I think the sun and the work situation were distracting me.
The weekend away with my sister is all booked so that's something to look forward to.
I have a busy week ahead but I'll write about it as it happens. I also have a list of things to do, phone calls to make, places to go. This will be a test of how much I've really recovered and how much I can achieve. And what the effects will be.
I carried a cup in each hand for a few seconds. I sorted out our home insurance and got us a much cheaper deal with a well known company. I've vacuumed a couple of times.
I'm having dizzy spells (pre-syncope) again. I think about the fairground roads I used to have a go on years ago; the spinning ones like the Waltzer car. Hold on tight, we're going for a ride!
I must remember to write every day although it has to fit into my back to work plan so that might have to be reviewed. I'll work out what is feasible...
I'm quite pleased with my new pages and I've given lots of information about CRPS to a friend who thinks her mum might be suffering with it in her feet. She's seen so many specialists and is getting very frustrated; sound familiar? She is negative about taking any medication but so was I two and a half years ago - things change, life changes...